Thanksgiving without Sugar Momma

It's been so long since I saw your sweet face

I have such tender memories time will never erase.

Thanksgiving is always so bittersweet to me

trying to move forward, but that doesn't seem to be the way it needs to be.

I remember so well all those Thanksgivings before

you told me you weren't going to be here for any more.

Thanksgiving 2004 is one of those days I won't forget

You told me you were going home soon...on that you'd be willing to bet

you knew that would be your last one here on Earth, didn't you?

you knew you'd not be here & you wanted me to know what to do.

I will never forget your sweet sweet hands, your wonderful hugs too

life is so blue without you Sugar Momma...oh it's so blue

in this life we have only so many people that loves us,

but you are no longer here with us, you are in Heaven with Jesus.

There will be no perfect gravy, no tales about my youth

I feel like my life was stolen from me when you died, that's the truth.

There are times I swear I smell your perfume, feel you near

there are times I feel nothing but anger and fear

I don't know how to make Thanksgiving as special as you did,

I know I'm a grown woman, eventhough sometimes I feel like a kid.

I miss having someone to cheer me along

I miss your silly words, and your happy song

I hate I no longer hear your tender voice

I know you aren't with us, because you had no choice

hard working hands are now at rest

God took you from us to prove He only takes the rest.

We still sit at the table you gave so long ago

how often I sit there to fill close to you...no one will ever know.

I don't know how to be here, I don't know how to be me

I don't know how to go thru the rest of my life, being happy to just be.

but I know you wouldn't want me to still cry over you

but I'm so tender hearted thats just me doing what I do.

You told me "In my daughters eyes" was special to you

I never told you how special it was to me too.

I've never been to Heaven, I don't know how it is there

but I know you are with Jesus, ALS no longer is your care

I sure miss your hugs so strong

living my life without them somehow feels wrong

I pray when I get to Heaven I get at least one more

and I hope you are the one that opens Heavens doors.

written by

Kimberly Storey©