Day 10:Shred DVD

today, I was brave.

I went to level 2 of Shred. I didn't know if I could do it but I had to try.

I looked at it as my 'last chance workout' so I really wanted to push it.

I really want to be able to see a change (downward) in the scales every week, but I know that sometimes that is not possible, especially when you get down to needing to lose the last bit of your weight.

I'm thinking positive....I'm not giving up. I dread tomorrow, but I look forward to it too.

I'm able to have more core strength now, and that means so much!

I haven't had any blood pressure problems in a week! YIPPPPEEEE! no more ringing ears...no more trying to fall asleep with the "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" sound so loudly in my ears! That alone is worth the workout.

I really like the 2nd stage of the workout more than the first, if I may be honest. I didn't know if I could do all the plank exercises because of my ankle, but you know what??? I DID THEM! I did the pushups type plank exercises & all!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh they just about killed me & man I'm still trembling from the exercises, but I DID IT!!!! I made it thru day 10! I'm so excited, and not at all embarrassed to admit I'm proud of myself. I feel like daily I'm getting stronger, and feeling younger! I'm going to reach my May 13th goals and my 40th b'day goals (the next January)!!! I can do it!

one thing I'm frustrated about is my lower abs. I'm giving 100% to the ab exercises & am seeing very little improvement there. I've had multiple surgeries & 4 children so the scars & stretch marks on my lower abs looks like mush. I mean it's in terrible shape. I don't know if I will ever see any results there, and that leaves me with a sadz. I simply don't know what to do with it.

I have a sneaking suspicion that I will have to lower my calories next week. I think that the 1355 will be my maintenance calories & I will need to lower my calories to 1200 to see weight loss. I just have that 'feeling'. But, that's okay. I will just do it.....I'm going to succeed. Succeed or die trying. I will be fit. I will be fit.